Friends, Foes and Philosophy
I call it "Philosophical pragmatism and otpimistic denial"
It’s nice to have support and know that there are people who care. My friends are so incredibly important, my foes (mutant DNA cells) are also important insofar as my level of understanding of them in order to adopt a strategy and last but not least my “philosophical pragmatism” is my weapon to stay on top of this whole experience.
I must give the illusion of optimism to others because that’s the one thing that keeps coming back “You are so full of optimism …”
That’s sort of comforting. I just hope that the optimism continues throughout this new page of my life.
What I’m really secretly hoping for is to find out that the pathologist fudged the original results but I’m also at the same time not kidding myself.
I’m lucky that I’ve spent the past two years pulling my body and health into shape. The permanent mutation of the DNA cells can take decades to occur so really whatever is happening now has been sitting in the background for a long time, biding its time and slowly mutating the DNA in my cells to the point of no return.
That’s one thing that I have to face up to. Once the DNA is mutated and the process of apoptosis (the death of cells which occurs as a normal and controlled part of an organism’s growth or development)stops happening it appears that there is no returning to normal. It;’s not like “Oh, I’ll live an even healthier lifestyle now and everything will return to normal.” No, it is a bit more complex than this.
I am on a journey to educate myself as thoroughly as possible but as usual I am impatient so I jump all over the place searching for new strands of information and clarification. Overall I am getting a concept of what cancer is but unfortunately there is a lot to still find out about.
One really good source of information has been Dr Valter Longo who has done decades of research on the benefits of fasting and what happens on a cellular level, especially to differentiate between normal cells and cancer cells.
So far it appears that I’m eating the right foods, I had to make some slight changes but essentially it’s lots of leafy green and cruciferous vegetables, no processed food or sugars, a small amount of very clean protein, clean fats like olive oil, coconut oil, avocado oil, certain supplements that I won’t list here but overall I’m doing all of these things and have cut back on any snacking, even though my snacks were healthy by most standards.
I still feel like some sort of observer as opposed to being a full blown participant. Maybe that’s a good place to be. Having a bit of distance between myself and my body could be a good thing. I still firmly see myself as being somewhat seperate to my body and even my mind but I’m not kidding myself that I’m responsible for the whole kit and caboodle and what is happening to me.
Reassuringly I am still very optimistic.
I call it being “pragmatically philosophical and optimistic denial”.
